well job hunting sucked..had no mood to go in and ask for vacancy LOL sighs im so gay.. anyway i really need a job but.. something is holding me back.. money running low.. but somehow.. im not too worried.. not sure why.. it's not like someone's backing me up.. and i dropped my pack of ciggs in the bus WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFF 15 sticks left mother FUCKER!!! HAHHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAH NITES

i'm slowly starting to lose it.. i need to escape from this cruel reality

what is an apology.. is it that hard to apologise? if you're saying it's not easy to apologise.. wouldn't that be an act of selfishness? cause an apology weakens the heart.. an act of condolence.. admitting a mistake.. we are humans.. we get emotional.. we make mistakes.. we apologise for it.. a simple sorry can really change a person's day.. i'm still waiting for it..

sighs.. why do i keep losing.. cant i get any decent mates? damn dota you're so hard

i didn't really care if she was gonna leave me.. what saddened me was you weren't being honest with me.. you never really told me about your feelings.. what was i suppose to do..

this was the third.. if the fourth ever comes.. i will never turn back again..

a guy without fucking balls should just fucking die like seriously

this is just wtf.. my gf is slacking with the biggest douchebag -_- and i feel like going cck just to fucking piss on his face.. guilty but still won't admit it... WHAT THE HELL

my eyes are fucking fucked.. but cant sleep early.. need to unwind by playing some games tonight huhuhuhu..

had a little bonding with my cousins.. quite a good day i would say.. but tiring cos i didnt get much sleep the previous night..

imma fking kill u boy stop sucking up to my girl dude.. respect man..

flew with my gf yesterday..had a mint time with her hahahaha.. then went home ard 3+.. played dota 2.. it sucks when u lose badly sighs.. slept at 7+am then midday my dad woke me up cos he was treating the family at Sakura buffet at downtown east.. too tired but still i couldn't say no.. what a glutton i am :'(.. anyway went soccer afterwards and now my feet hurts like hell damnn... anyway tmr is hari raya haji.. big outing and especially looking forward to the food i'll consume huhuhu

till next time :D

felt a sudden sense that i have to get a job soon at orchard.. preferably retail.. like really soon.. can't daze the days away anymore.. money running low

had a dream.. a dream too weird and at the end was shocking O.O.. but i got up and started to diary down every single thing i could remember.. need to start changing my lifestyle.. need to grow

good session with my buddy taufiq salleh yeaaaaaaa... been a while since we hung out.. and afterwards to punggol pondok.. nice day u can say.. by that i mean night huhuhuhu

                                              tahune airwalk with my buddy muzhaffar

god how do i make this blog look pretty.. i want this to feel homely i mean why not.. beauty makes the mind pause..

well this blog was created thanks to my friend ahmad amirudin.. my exNs Senior.. a great and very wise friend whom i truly respect.. i was "inspired" in his way of dealing/overcoming life's problems and one of them was creating a blog to voice out and not bottle-up your thoughts.. i've never felt better.. sounds gay but.. a friend like u is one in a million..

well things are getting better i think.. been texting her since afternoon and it felt like the good ol' days.. she has yet to tell me how she feels for me.. can't get my confidence too high in case of any last minute change of heart :/

 

promise me things will get better

day 3.

please come back baby :'( tell me u love me please :(